Last 3 months have been very happening. Tonight, I am
getting nostalgic of the quality time I have spent during last couple of
months. It was the duration when I was relatively free after the civil services
mains examination. There seemed hardly anything to do in general and with respect
to studies in particular. It was the time when I found myself in vacuum after
the tedious mains preparation and busy schedule. Especially after 8 days of
mains examination, the mind was turbulent, fingers were painful and body was
restless. I was desperately yearning for sigh of bliss.
A good sleep and then internet were the rescuers. First of
all movies were targeted and backlog was done away with. Interestingly, I came
across few people; few of them were friends who were far apart for very weird
reasons, few were very special ones, yet strangers and a few new ones. It was great spending time with them. I felt
as if I have lived the life after a long time. I shall definitely cherish those
moments and shall miss them. There were ups and downs; it was the time when
life taught me a few lessons. It made me realise that the dear ones will always
be around with open arms, be it looking for suggestions while finding yourself in
topsy-turvy or be it while seeking asylum when finding self at the lowest ebb or
be it hanging out when caught up in the utter despair.
It was also the time when I was the most inefficient during
the course of my civils’ preparation. Even if something was important to
commence, I did procrastinate it and at times simply ignored it. Books were
getting dust. Nevertheless, I was very particular and determined that I cannot and
I will never miss reading newspaper. And believe me it gave a great sense of
satisfaction in spite of my detached attachment with the books. It was only during
last few days that I have done something fruitful with respect to my interview
preparation, courtesy: a very helpful friend of mine.
Now at the eve of so called D day when I retrospect what I
have done in last couple of months, I am quite happy with the events which
turned up. They have obviously made a better human being out of me. Regarding results,
I am neither succumbing to the unaccounted distress nor being expectant and swayed
with the sanguinity because of the greater scope of uncertainty this examination
carries. Whatever may be the result, I’ll be the happy lad. In any case, I will
start studying with the same fervour and exuberance which I used to carry
earlier for either interview or the next attempt.
